My Mom and Grandmother
Being a Mom is different then I ever expected. I don't think anyone really tried to explain what it's really like being a mother. Most of what I heard was it's hard and the best thing you'll ever do... I'm not sure why this was never explained or talked about more. But I assume it's a different experience for everyone.
When I was pregnant with Presley I thought that the love I would have for her would grow over time. The more I got to know her the more I would love her. That's how pretty much all the relationships have been in my life. I was even worried I would resent her for my changing body and loss of freedom (even though I "thought" I was ready). But once I heard her cry while she was delivered my heart was 100 percent hers and none of that stuff mattered.
I'm lucky enough to be a stay at home mom. Being with her and knowing every little noise and attempt at a word is the perfect job for me. Now that Presley is two, communicating more and she's becoming more independent, allowing me a few of the things I had to give up got me thinking.
Just about all the friends I have with kids have had planned pregnancies. Most of my friends are all in their late 20's or 30's. I feel like we were the most prepared we could have been. All of us were prepared for some sacrifices.
What I wasn't prepared for was taking four hours to leave the house and then once I do leave not remembering if I brushed my teeth (I hope that's not only me). There are so many little things that I didn't realize I would have to give up in this deal. It's more comical then anything else, (now that I'm starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel)... I didn't know that my wardrobe would be so greatly effected. I don't have outfits anymore, I have stained and old (compared to pre baby) clothes that I wear with flats- I never wore flats. I use to joke that I could play around of golf in heels (I'm 5 foot 3). My feet actually hurt if I wore flats before Presley. I didn't use to wear shorts either, I thought shorts were for girls, women do not wear shorts... Now I know women with kids wear shorts!
Having a child changes you, what I don't know yet is if I will go back to the person (in part) that I was before... Will I stop wearing shorts?